You said it - it's better to be alone than to be with your friends and family on a roller coaster ride to rock bottom. And of COURSE it's better to be alone. Would you rather be alone in a room...or in a room with a tiger? Alone! This is the same type of situation. Distance yourself from the party scene and come up with a plan, and do it in a safe place if you can. We are here to support you, welcome.