Sounds like alcohol is doing you no favours Back2thegoodME, only causing misery, but it doesn't have to be like that, you can draw a line under alcohol and say no more, write a new happier future chapter to your life.
For me when I had to make that same decision, I figured what have I got to loose? it couldn't be any worse than throwing up, feeling like death and full of regret on another Monday morning, life couldn't continue on like that, and so why not try it out for 6 months or even a year and reassess things then, what really is there to loose by giving it a try??
You can do this!!
