Sounds like you're having a bad time right now, sorry about that. Reminds me of myself when I'm in one of my episodes. Best thing for me is to hit the gym, not drinking alcohol and replacing it with lots of natural fruity tea. Trying to cut out caffeine altogether. Caffeine makes things much worse. Of course that's all easier said than done sometimes, but it helps if I do. I hope you feel better soon 😀