I was there 2 months ago in a 6 year marriage 13 year relationship .I feel like i'm reading my story I get it!!! . We all have our own choices to make . I can tell you that I left two months ago with barely any $$ not enough to brag about but some how I am making it . I have ups and downs. But in the end I am happier than I have been in 13 years. I no longer see a unconscious drunk/high as a kite man on his recliner.
The resentment was so deep he could breathe and would put my nerves in a tail spin. Are you working any programs for you? I know once I finally sent his butt packing then reality kicked in and working a program for me is what saving me. Are you going to Alanon or Therapy?