Today is day 10- yay double digits. I am not feeling strong but I think because arguing with husband a lot.
The thought came to me that I act like an alcoholic even when I am not drinking if that makes sense.
At the AA meeting I went to last night they talked a lot about anger. I am so so angry and I think if I relapse it will be because of my anger.
And so I need to find a way to deal with it- little by little. Issue by issue. I find myself really lashing out at people for little things and I wonder why I don't have anyone who really loves me in my life except for my two boys. Thank God for them and I just pray that I can always be loving to them at least.
Thanks for letting me vent.
JB.