Shooting Star you've totally hit me over the head with your articulate response.
I am well aware of how much better our home ran when RAH was in rehab and I had the kids alone. There was less stress and nervousness by far.
I have also gone and put myself right out there employment wise (currently my medical specialty has me work nights only, but if I'm to raise my kids alone I'm going to need a day job and childcare) and I've interviewed for a pretty fantastic position within our health ministry that is a minor paycut, but huge potential and workability with families. RAH really wants me to get this position, but he must realize that if I land it (I'm officially in the top three candidates right now) it is much easier for me to move along without him. I have an amazing job now, but I would find it difficult to secure overnight childcare that I'm comfortable with.