Welp, I wasn't going to post this, but I know we are already worried about 2 of our other classmates so here goes ... I drank again last night. However, something good did come out of it. Hubby noticed and called me out on it. I had been hiding my drinking from him and everyone else so it is kind of a huge relief that I finally came clean with him. Now he knows I have been struggling and can help. I am not proud of the fact that I have been hiding this from him, but, as only other alcoholics know, this disease is very isolating and we do things we are not so proud of. My husband is very supportive and says he will watch the girls in evenings if I want to go to meetings. I am so lucky and need to get serious about my sobriety. No more mess ups or slips. My marriage and family depend on this. Today has to be my LAST Day 1. Sorry that I keep sounding like a broken record. I know you are all probably sick of hearing it again, but I wanted go be honest with you all.