LovesVWs......I noted the letter that you wrote when he was in rehab 2yrs. ago....and, it sounds like you have had a pretty m iserable time for about the last 10yrs. You must be exhausted! I don't know how old your kids are....it must be a very tense atmosphere for them to live in, also.....with a momma that is worn out, exhausted and a dad that is off the hinge.
I was told many years ago that one of the signs of mental health was the ability to make a decision and to carry through with it. I have kept that in my mind, ever since. It comes in handy when I have had the tough situations to face....lol!
I feel compassion for how you must be feeling and, how scared you must be.
What support do you have, if any? Support is so crucial for you. You are carrying the concern for several people on your back....who is there for you?
You will get through this...like so many others, before you. You are not alone, in this.....
dandylion