But these persistent, "Maybe you can control it now," kinds of thoughts feel more like me, being arrogant and ****** and thinking I can handle anything. They're the only thoughts that, when they come, I don't want help with them. They don't feel external like cravings do, like thoughts of "**** it" do, or like romanticizing does. They feel like my own stupid thoughts.
Sometimes we listen to that voice so long, it sounds like us.
It's not tho - from this perspective I can tell you that there's a real you inside trying to get out.
Give that you all the help you can helpimalive
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