I totally get that. That was where I was at on Saturday - I just wanted my reality to be altered one way or another. Old habits die hard, as they say. It's just a minor setback, and I'm not going to let it throw me. I have to make sure I'm never around it though. It's just too tempting for me. I can say no 9 times, but the 10th is different. So yeah. From now on it just has to be banned in my home. That's the way it is.
Stay strong :-)