I'm glad your back it shows that you realy want to quit! I too struggled in the beggining but I finally surrendered and the cravings were removed. I just kept asking for help to stay straight every morning and thanking my HP at night. I did not have much of a connection with HP but as I continued to stay sober one day at a time I began to see that it was working. I got a sponsor read the big book and started working on the steps and that was a long time ago now. As long as you keep trying eventually your cravings will be removed and it will get easier. The most important thing that I have always remebered was to continue to ask for help. AA gave me the tools to work on myself I picked up those tools and started to build a new life. It has been well worth the effort. Take care and keep coming back you will make it!