Almost 90. Almost.
Back from working for 2 weeks where free alcohol was accessible. I didn't have any.
Also was alone much of the time and upset over health issues.
Tomorrow is 90 days and I really have that feeling of "a few every 90 days is absolutely fine."
That makes no sense as I thought the more time passed, the less it appeals.
I was afraid to post this, so that if I do end up having any tonight I won't feel bad about getting all the supposed and then drinking some anyway, and people won't get mad.
I was afraid to post this thinking also that people are gonna be mad just because of me posting again, and that this isn't easy and I am not doing gratitude lists and bouncing around all happy yet.
And boyfriend is emotionally distant as usual.