helpimalive

You know, I never related my feeling that drinking becomes the meaning of my life when I do it, to what other people call "the obsession." It's good to know that's what some people mean when they say that. I always thought that most alcoholics were obsessed with drinking, but still had other stuff they cared something about, whereas I feel like when I drink, it's all that really matters. Like, so many people hold down jobs for years drunk. I had to quit after 4.5 years in the work force or else I'd have been fired, because I put progressively less into my job as I put progressives more into drinking.