true. I'm currently in that cycle again. not really a conscious decision (other than I DID choose to pick up about a month ago)but it does come before everything else and is the only way I can Do anything else. was at a bonfire last night with other heavy drinkers sharing how I have to get a couple of American honey's in me just to make coffee and then a few more To feel able to face the day.realized immediately how ludicrous it did sound but I got up this morning and did the same thing. I need a lobotomy..