Good for you for recognizing your problem. One word that struck me in your post was "hope". You can stop drinking and stay that way but you will need to put in the sustained effort. First for me was recognizing that I can't ever drink again. Until the last 3-year drinking spell, i didn't drink every night and was easily able to stop. I stopped for 13 years before starting again. This last time was h*ll-on-wheels to stop.
I, too, have serious depression problems and alcohol made that worse -- as alcohol simply makes everything worse.
I will hope that you won't make the same mistakes I did and will take this seriously enough to stop and stay stopped, one day at a time. It's so worth it!