Sleepie, I hope your health issues turn out to be better than you fear. I think you deserve a break, for sure.
Are the benzos the break you need? Is the six-pack the solution?
The addictive voice loves bad news. Prince Valium likes you to be sick. It gives him time to whisper in your ear...
Tell him he's weak, and you would rather be stronger facing these challenges without him pulling you down.