(((Leshar))) and (((Ladybug)))
I think we should never forget that we are not our disease/addiction/affliction/illness - whatever you want to call it.
We are, and always are, much more than that.
I didn't believe in anything divine when I quit either Leshar - but I believed in love and goodness because I'd experience d both and I clung to the faith that I'd experience both again - and I did
Ladybug - it took me 15 years of trying - everytime I got a little closer to doing the right things in the right order that would keep me sober.
Don't lose heart - keep adding things to your programme - you will get there
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