He is testing me for ketones which I know is diabetes type one and that's from chronic pancreatitis which I am terrified of. I already have symptoms like peeing all the time and early diabetes so when I brought up the possibility of this he seemed to agree yes it's pretty likely. I never even had a chance at a good life, not being set up with a sociopath mother and an LD. Never even had a chance. Now that I got sober I find I will never have a chance, not even now. It is breaking me to pieces.