Thanks so much for the kind words. I did email her with an apology and she ended up apologizing to me because she had forgot to put me on the list lol. So now I am going to see them November 17 and it worked out. Although that part worked out, I still am feeling very crapped out today. I can't seem to bring myself to do anything and I'm dizzy and absent minded. In the past making it to day 4 hasn't caused me this much trauma. I keep thinking - well it's almost Friday then I can drink... but then I remember the promise I made to myself and my husband and I get a little angry, sad, weird, whatever. Just all around awful feeling. I hope these feelings subside soon. They are very hard to live with.