Hi,
I just got back from an appointment yesterday. I too am convinced I have something terminal and its tearing me apart.
My blood pressure was really low, and then now its high! Im really young but I'm convinced im going to die from an illness soon.
I wanted to drink last night because I felt like whats the point? I feel like I'm going to die or whatever anyway. If not now, years down the road, might as well not be super scared about it. So I totally understand how this feels.
Thank you for this post.
Perhaps we are at a stage in our sobriety where this occurs? It seems as if this wasn't our main worry a month ago, and now it is.
Deep down I think we will be fine, and it'll be okay, I just wish our minds didn't have to worry like this.