Not doing well
Another dr appt. tomorow. i am losing my mind with fear. Straight up fear. I know how my life goes. I quit drinking, and diabetes is getting worse, not better. My BF is still overweight and his blood sugars are improving even though he has not mad drastic changes. The usual, I do the hard work, I am not even over weight and my sugars are getting worse. I really cannot take this and my mind cannot handle this. I took a valium because feeling this way as my health gets worse is horrifying. Tomorrow I see a dr about why in the hell am I losing weight for no apparent reason and some other disturbing things.
I think am in the first steps of a horrible diagnosis. It was all I could do to deal with the diabetic thing and now I have unexplained weight loss and that doesn't really happen unless you have something terminal.
I am horrified. I wish that I could get just one single break.
It's not me just being anxious or needing to stop being a "bummer" or that I worry too much. This s*** is real and it is horrifying.