Originally Posted by
stubbs 
What you say is so true.My Shame and guilt have taken the fun out of it.I have such a self hatred I believe it's making it harder to quit.
Thanks, Bimini! Am trying the quote system out....
Stubbs, I can totally relate to the shame and guilt making it harder to quit. Honestly, once you get some sober time - even a small amount - you start to feel that lifting off you gradually, and it becomes addictive in a very good way! You can do it, Stubbs. Your marriage can be good again. You obviously care very much about it. Go for it!! Make those positive changes :-)