So now I've woken up I am feeling stupid for having drank, but I know I cannot drink for the next three days so I will at least reach day 4 again. I also basically "came out" as having a drink problem to my friends and the support has been overwhelming. It has also lead to a discussion about my mental health.
I have depression, but after looking at issues and talking to people I think I may actually be bi-polar so the first step is to see a doctor about both that and getting back into the process of being put on antabuse.
Thanks for the support guys xx