Recovery is what happens in our meetings; each of our lives is at stake. We found that by putting recovery first, the Program works.
In my past, I always put drugs first. And we all know what happens when we do that! I only ended up destroying myself and others around me, even when I tried really hard not to. It wasn't my intention to hurt myself or to hurt others, but it never failed to happen. I came to understand that my disease does not respect my intentions. In fact, my disease respects nothing that is good for me.
Even in recovery, my disease tries to sneak into the goodness and mess that up too. But if I continue to use the best known weapon against it, another recovering addict, and put the principles of the Program ahead of my selfish nature, I have a good chance to live clean and free for another day.
Peace
cj