You're not a failure for not being able to consume something, does someone who has a nut allergy beat themselves up for not being able to eat nuts? or someone who is allergic to diary think themselves as a failure?
The reality is alcohol doesn't agree with some people, some can control it and some can't, but there is neither success or failure in that, that's just the way it is, but it's important to realise and accept which side of the fence we fall and move forward accordingly.
For me permanently giving up alcohol was my way forward, and in some ways when I knew the path I had to follow, it gave me some certainty and relief that I knew where I was going in life, for years I tried to control my drinking, and it lead to much misery, and at times a false sense of achievement, back and forward, back and forward I would go.
But you're not alone, SR is full of people who understand!!
