Sadie, I'm proud to be your sober twin
October 1 has a very nice ring to it.
Thank you all for the well wishes. I had a doctor's appointment earlier this week and was diagnosed with depression and prescribed Wellbutrin. Today I took my first dose. I have a follow up with my doctor in three weeks. I hope this helps keep my moods more stable so that I can focus on coping mechanisms for negative feelings. Self-medicating with alcohol did not get me anywhere.
Patricia, try to focus on the "right now." It sounds like you are having some intense withdrawal symptoms. Whenever I google something that is hurting, I always come up with the worst case scenario. Don't get too worked up about what alcohol may have done to you. You are alive and are sober and that is a wonderful thing! Take things slowly; give yourself that much. We've done lots of damage to our bodies and minds and it will take time to heal. Sending good thoughts your way!