Ro - that made me laugh...belly laugh.
I actually don't feel like punching RAH in the face...at least most the time!
I hear what is being said here. My resentment over the way RAH has treated me is coming out as anger. Maybe it is very deep seeded. He treated me very badly while drinking. I took care of him. Now he wants to basically imply that I have been a bad wife. I resent that.
I do notice that my tone is very sharp when I talk about it. I am very good at burying emotion and I think that is probably coming out more as we talk in counseling.
I really started to detach from RAH last year before he went to rehab. I don't think I have ever re-attached. Maybe I am having difficulty understanding the anger statement because most of the time I just don't care. Apathy is more along the lines of what I feel.
Thanks for all your help. Having this has given me some insight and work to do.
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