Originally Posted by
QuitForSon 
I know what I need to do but it is hard to say forever to myself.
So perhaps you could seek some help to make that choice? Have you ever considered joining a recovery group like AA/LiferRing/Smart? Being physically in the presence of others seeking the same thing that you are can be very helpful, especially during early recovery.
Reading materials associated with formal recovery groups ( AA Big Book, AVRT materials, etc ) can also help you define/accept your alcoholism.