Thank you Dee. I've seen first hand how people change after some time sober. I haven't lost all hope yet of being happy. That is part of what is keeping me sober today. I have no idea who I am as a single sober person. When I was married with a child at home I was sober. 10 months after my divorce and my son graduated I started drinking. That was almost 5 years ago. (Oct. will be 5 years ago that I started drinking. Not heavily at first, but didn't take long.)
I've never been alone and sober so this is completely new to me. I am trying, but it is so hard. Anyway, thank you for your reply. It was very much needed.