This is a situation where you have to disabuse yourself of the "victim" mentality. You aren't a victim. Even though we all talk about the AV as if it were a corporeal entity, it's not. So drinking is a choice. It's something we talk ourselves into.
I don't drink no matter what. There are days I want to drink. But I don't. Every day I come on SR and read or post. Every day I reach out to people in real life who are in recovery. Every day I practice gratitude for what I have and for my continued sobriety. If bad things happen, I buckle down and double my efforts. If I'm bored, I look at what I'm doing to contribute to boredom.
This isn't easy but you can do it. But you can't drink. No matter what.