Horrible Night Again
I don't know why I expected to have a good night. They have been few and far between. My ah has been very careful about how much he's been drinking at night. I have been checking his hidden bottle, and it appears that he's been taking 5-6 large drinks of his whiskey. Actually this ( looks like quart bottle) has lasted the week, usually done in 2 days. My ah worked all day yesterday, was his last day at this job. We're supposed to be reopening his family business, but with the 2 of us as owners. He didn't come home till around 6:30. He immediately got on the phone with a son of a friend, who is about 27 yrs old. This son is a RA, who was involved a few yrs ago in a DWI, with a fatality. He is counseling this young man, and actually picking him up today for some kind of race. My ah is telling this boy, his father isn't right, and my ah has his back. This is when the trouble began. I told my ah, that he should try to come between a father and son. He hit the roof . Not only was he on the phone with this kid for over 2 hrs, when I was looking forward to some kind of evening!! I took his bottle and put it on the kitchen counter. My ah called me again all kinds of names, to include how unattractive I am, and he could have any woman he wanted.
I'm worried about this young man being with my ah. I believe part of the reason he didn't go to jail is because he is now a RA. My ah took the almost empty bottle, and I believe took it with him.
He has threatened me so many times with divorce. I'm going to find a lawyer to talk too. I want to know what my rights are. Am I wrong to worry about this young man??? When will it all stop??? Am I expecting too much?? My ah told me last night he would fight me for our dogs. I am so confused. Am I wrong??? I'm feeling like the crazy inadequate wife. This disease has no mercy, and affects every part of ones life. This disease is like no other, most conditions the person seeks treatment and recovers. Not this disease!!! It hurts so.