Maybe just hang tight until you get past 5, then sit for an hour in deep reflection (6) after your 5th step discussion then say the 7th step prayer with all the willingness you can muster.....You may have a new perspective after step 7......
Have you read
Not-God: A History of Alcoholics Anonymous by Ernest Kurtz? Good history and info about AA
stop thinking so much! go talk to a newcomer, too!!
