Hi Quest, I don't know much about AA but 6 meetings a week is above the average meeting-load.
I understand you want to get it right
with that in mind - what do you think about the resentments in your post - the meeting chair guy who you feel wants adulation and you suspect has something against you because you won't do that...or your sponsor who you feel does not take you seriously, or the group that you hear the same thing over and over in, or you don't share in because you don't want to be seen as a know all?
Some resentments are more justified than others, but all of them can be dangerous to your recovery if you let them grow and fester.
Maybe that's contributing to your sense of ill-ease?
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