Of course you have my prayers and best wishes Hobbers - everyone does
The 'evidence' you have for a life not drinking is flawed tho.
There's not one of us here who would stay sober if we were unhappy with it.
From my experience, it takes a few things to be set in place for happiness tho.
One is you have to have faith that a life sober is better than a life drunk. You don't necessarily have to believe it (I didn't at first) but you need to be committed to giving it a go.
Second, you need to be patient, and realise that there is a part of you that will use your fear and discomfort against you if you let it..
and thirdly - you need to realise that getting sober will not make you happy by itself.
Not drinking will get you to that second phase - the 'what do I want my life to look like and how do I get there' phase, or the 'get happy' phase.
you can't find joy and serenity if you're drinking - and you won't find it if all you're doing is not drinking.
You need to have both phases going for lasting happiness peace and contentment IMO
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