(Posted these and the next one, earlier, in the 'wrong August', lol.)
Hi gang,
So, I had another bad weekend, where I was drinking (at times) uncontrollably. I just keep coming back to the problem/answer that 'I just don't see alcohol not being in my life at all/ever'. I can have a beer or two, and be done, but it is when I don't want a beer or two- where I literally decide and plan to drink an entire bottle of whatever- and that now happens way too frequently.
and my anxiety, stress, marriage, and (now, it seems) depression issues only exacerbate the issue(s)- one feeds off of another, which feeds into a third, and then, we get a snowball effect.
I will NOT drink today. I will try to not drink tomorrow. And we'll just go from there.
(though my only brother's wedding is this weekend, and I just don't remotely see myself not drinking there. /sigh...)