Hi Room, I'm in the US so I don't know the ins and outs of getting help in the UK, but I agree with what others have said and get on the list, even if you have to wait, at least you're "in line" so to speak. Also, have you attempted tapering? Its not a popular resolution on this site, but I did it successfully. You will still experience some uncomfortable moments but you can dig yourself out. You just have to be disciplined. I am wishing you the very best. There is a better, more rewarding life waiting for you.