Matilda, I too get to thinking about all the time I have wasted by drinking, all the time I have just been going through the motions but feeling just totally checked out from life. Actually, it would be more accurate to say that I deliberately checked myself out. It is depressing for sure but I try to remember that saying “The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now." Time to step back into my life and be who I am supposed to be.