Hi guys, just checking in. Lots to do and process over here. It's been a roller coaster. They are beginning to find the bodies of people who died in the fire, and one was a family friend. That added a new level of processing I'm working through. It's very difficult, but I haven't wanted to drink at all. In fact, throughout this I've been grateful for my sobriety. I feel confident that I can handle this situation.
My family is doing well. Mom is safe at her house, and brother has spent the last three days fixing the local gas station (he's a plumber). He thought he was just volunteering until today when the owner told him insurance is paying for it, so turns out he is going to be paid handsomely. He also expects a lot of work as people begin to rebuild. While he's grateful, every time I talk to him he tells me it's not fair that things are going well for him and not others. He has a lot of guilt over that. He's just such a kindhearted guy.