Thank you so much for those kind words, I appreciate it more than I can say. I do feel like a failure and am starting to feel embarrassed about posting. I feel like the more times I mess up the less I have a right to be here, offer help to others or even ask for help.
I swear I am really trying. I know it doesn't seem like it, but I am. I am putting effort into this and have found some success. But I continue to fall.
I am a good person, I try to do everything right, this is the one thing I keep doing wrong- picking up the first drink.