Mera, one of the challenges I faced was feeling that people on SR didn't "get" where I was at and weren't able to help me. Repeatedly relapsing doesn't happen to everyone and it doesn't mean that there is anything weak about you. Some of us have a much more difficult time and what works for many may not work for us as well. Since I had the f2f stuff, SR has been terrific but for me it was frustrating here prior to that.
One of the most important things you can do, IMHO, is to work your head around to accepting that you are not a bad or weak person!. The more I felt awful about myself, the harder it became. I lost confidence in my ability to stay sober.
Feel free to PM me if you think it could help.