Originally Posted by
AlaskaGirl 
Saskia, thanks for the gentle response, I hadn't thought about it that way. Just so you know though, your time wasn't waisted. I haven't been on SR in a long time. I manage a few months sober about once a year. Then I slip back in until I get to the point I just wrote about. It was last weekend. My post started as a response to the thread "I will drink today because" but what started as light hearted turned into a confession of sorts. So I posted as a thread so I could connect with others and start this journey again. Thanks for your time. I am struggling. I'm still alone in my house. There is a shop full of whisky and a box of wine in my back yard. My husband doesn't want to believe I have a problem even though I drunkenly cried to him about it a month ago.
AlaskaGirl, thank you for your honest response. I'm glad you responded to my post and I'm sorry I didn't understand the background. I hope you will stick with this difficult journey. Non-alcoholics don't usually understand what it's like - they just assume it's a question of willpower. Staying sober can be done but don't underestimate the AV! I had many relapses and had some long (eg 13 years) sober spells. This last time after 13 sober years was very difficult. If you find yourself relapsing again and again, I hope you'll consider an addictions counselor, an inpatient or outpatient program of some type, etc. for me an intensive outpatient program plus meds made all of the difference.
Please let me know how you are doing! I care.