Originally Posted by
Meraviglioso 
I am actually seriously considering rehab right now. I don't know how I will manage it with the kids. Their father is away for work a lot and cannot change that.
I agree that you do need to seriously consider something other than what you are doing now mera. Call around and see what is available for inpatient and outpatient programs.
I'd also recommend seeking therapy too. It seems as though you are having a very difficult time dealing with business and personal issues, and quitting drinking by itself is not going to solve those issues. Sobriety is a lot more than just not drinking, right?