There's a good case to be made for it being in my DNA too Zen- but that doesn't mean I'm doomed to drink.
I get it, I really do - I drank while I could 'get away with it'...
the trouble was I lost more and more things, things & people very dear to me before I could no longer get away with it...and then longer still before I finally pulled up.
I really wish I'd quit 10 years earlier, and you'll hear that again and again on these boards.
Maybe it's time to feed the wolf you want to win?
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