Hi Letitgo,
I am into my 5th year of sobriety, thanks to SR. and AA. For me each individual's path to sobriety seems different. The bottom line for me is to stop drinking and stay that way but if it was a struggle after so many years I would question my sobriety, I doubt I would stay sober if I was continually thinking about alcohol and desiring a drink .
I don't get to many meetings for different reasons, mainly distance but I have turned more inward, practising more self awareness. I can easily recognize stressors when they come up and deal with them immediately, I much less stress nowadays than I thought possible.
I just want to say to anyone who is struggling with alcohol, I hope you find something that works for you, never give up trying, it will click one day.
CaiHong