Originally Posted by
amp123 
Thanks for that Stargazer. I've had a tough few days. High stress at work. Actually physically my body is rebelling against me with stys and sores. Made it through a wedding last night with AV roaring at me that just one and it would be alright. So tense the whole time. Everyone asking if something was wrong and was I ok. My wife on at me being so antisocial... But I'm still here. Roll on 150 and congrats to all who are there and there abouts
Right. Time to get on the road. 5 hours till home and rest!
Hang in there, Amp! Whether it's a coincidence or not, I always feel crappy and tempted near a milestone. 30,60,90 and now 150 were unexpectedly challenging for me also.
The lack of spousal support is difficult. My wife still has no idea how bad off I was, mainly because I concealed my drinking from her. For twenty years. I felt and still feel ashamed over my drinking past and lack of honesty. People who are not addicts just can't wrap their heads around what we are going through.
Keep posting Amp whenever you feel the AV roaring. We are all in this together!