Hey guys. It's been a pretty bad week here for me. I'm ashamed, feeling guilty. I was scared to even come back on here, feel embarrassed and disappointed in myself. A week off work has taken its toll again. I've drank every day this past 7 days. The worst part is, I recognised every trigger along the way, and I felt like I couldn't control any of it. Once I'd done that first day things just kept going. I should have come here, talked it out, done anything as long as it meant not drinking. But I didn't.
I as good as did six weeks without even letting temptation into my head, and now I just feel back to where I started, mentally, physically. Feels like such a huge hurdle to overcome again. I know I can do, even with 24 hours behind me I'll start to feel better. Just to much resentment towards myself right now.
Hope you guys'll have me back.