I thought I was like you. It's only since I have got my life back that I realise how rubbish it actually was. How much I was controlled by fear; anxiety; resentments and, of course, the obsession to fill my weekends with drinking. How much I acted in ways I hated myself for. How much I'd become a person I disliked having to spend time with. The light was off and I was in the dark - no wonder I couldn't appreciate how far down I'd dug myself in. Recovery has enlightened me. My perspective has changed and I can see myself and my life from a different angle, and from this perspective there's a lot of hope.