Almost There - Grateful to Have Been Pulled Through
It has been a long time since I have posted to this forum. Life keeps me busy, busy, busy and happy, happy, happy. I don't like to dwell on the past events and look back at the awful things I experienced when I was with my ex addict husband, but choose to reflect (with my spare time) on the blessings I have in life.
This time last year, I signed a lease to a home to rent and secretly planned an escape from the addict I was married to. I am just waiting for the next two weeks to pass before I will be able to file my divorce. I thank God, when I think about the times I faced during my relationship, for pulling me through. I can't believe I made it out and how much has changed in my life in just a year.
I have been no contact since February of this year and I think that has helped a lot. Out of sight makes it easier to move forward. I can't help but think I was used as a means to an end for all those years and I'm OK with that now. It doesn't bother me anymore, when I once was bitter. His family thinks poorly of me, which is OK. I have no idea the picture they painted of me. All I know is I'm about two months from legally being unbound from a time in my life I never thought I would get through. I am so grateful.
Thank you to all who commented along the way and who tried to bring me to see the dysfunction in my relationship. I am almost out.