My first hangover free shower...
Day 2
I just had my first hangover free shower in many months after drinking 120 units a week.
Before
I would drag myself to the shower knowing I had to wash away the stench of alcohol
I would stand there numb, recollecting shamefully how much I had drunk the night before
I wondered if I had written anything stupid online that needed deleting
I wondered if I'd upset my OH
I wondered how I'd got to bed and whether I'd left any bottles in random places
I would have a feeling of doom as I slowly realised what tasks I had to tackle in the coming hours
I would berate myself, hate myself
I would wonder how much wine is left and whether I need to buy more for tonight...
Today
I woke at 6am but instead of watching random YouTube rubbish on the iPad with headphones I was motivated to just get up and get in the shower
I felt the warm water on me and enjoyed the sensation
I washed with lime shower gel and felt clean without having felt dirty before
I felt calm
I considered the day ahead
I felt hopeful
OMG the small things eh?
I know I'm only day 2 but I plead with anyone who was doing 100+ units a week and feels fool of doom and hopelessness to visit your doctor.
I am going to be me again and I can't wait : ))))