One thing I can tell you for sure is that alcoholism is a progressive disease. It will get worse unless you stop drinking. So, you may feel you have some control now, but the future could be very different.
Personally, I didn't like myself when I was drinking, no matter how little I was drinking at the time. I didn't like the obsessive thoughts, the planning and sneaking and hiding my drinking. I have never, for one second, regretted stopping drinking.